Fall semester is over, and I am presently enjoying the second of two consecutive days off. I was going to wait to blog about my fall semester until after grades have been posted, but decided that I am proud of myself regardless of grades. Like last semester I did not miss any class time or any assignments. But unlike last semester I took nine units instead of six, and worked five days a week, with my only days off being school days.
I was not alone in my endeavor, my husband and MIL picked up my slack and supported me through every deadline. Jack tolerated my absence from the home and obliged to play nicely while I did homework alongside him in the kitchen or living room.
Much of the time I felt guilty for having to arrange and prioritize my quality time with him so rigidly. But I never wavered where my school work was concerned. I did, however, call off to work when Jack needed his mama at home, or when my back hurt too much, or when both Graham men were sick.
As I was wrapping up my final exams earlier this month, I was also knee deep in holiday shoppers at my job. My stress level reached an all time high and my eye began to twitch regularly. Jack was acting out and being extra sensitive, calling himself a baby and insisting I carry him everywhere. One of those nights I was putting Jack to bed, and I told him that I was almost finished with the semester, and would soon have a whole month off. He let out a big sigh and gave me a sad and severe look.
Later the next day I was thinking about Jack, and all the time together we had to sacrifice, and I decided to register for just two classes for the spring semester. As much as I want to push my way through school as hard as I can, I also need Jack to know that he is my number one priority.
I can always take a class in the summer to make up the difference. Jack is growing and changing so quickly that I want to be as present for him as possible. I want him to know that his mama works hard and tries her best, and sometimes I can not be with him, but that he is my reason for everything.